Through my painful journey I gradually and steadily came into acceptance and realization. Life is what it is. All that you have encountered, all that is happening to you , no matter how terrible and dark it seems, it is part of your life and your experience alone.
And you are not a victim. Every experience acquired in this life is in its essence important and needed by you and the reason you came to this earth for. We were given eternal life, the journey is ongoing and we learn and grow for all time, the here and the now are  just a moment in time. An important one, but still a passing one. This is why it is very important to me to take life and the spiritual work lightly. It is what it is and it is an experience. There is a spiritual solution for every issue on this planet, there is a learning lesson for everything that is happening to you and once you found it, the issue will dissolve and you can move on. Nothing happens to us as a punishment. We are not victims. This life is not to be endured, it is to be lived and you should be able to enjoy all of  it, even the challenging times. Because after all that is what you are here for. To grow. To evolve.  And to live this life. And most of all , to feel that you are alive.
Never ever give up. Your life is waiting for you to jump into its flow. Its yours ! Live it. And feel that you are alive.